Am I?

The source of this thought is the television, lately everything intelligent or unintelligent I come across is via the idiot box. So is this thought.. So the thought is this.. a literature teacher in a sitcom I watch called the youth of today "Generation Whatever!" Why? because they don't really know how to complete their emotions. What does that even mean? Well.. it means that we as a generation are so out of sync with our language (any for that matter: English/Hindi/whatever your mother tongue is) that we can seldom use words to express ourselves when we write. Instead we resort to emoticons, punctuation marks as they were the content and words are the fillers.

That really did get me thinking. I mean I did believe at one point of time that I am brilliant with words. But if I really think of it keeping the above in context in mind, Am I? 

I would never know for sure, as I've never really shared those thoughts with anyone. I know this for sure that I'm not a great speaker, so communicating my thoughts via that medium is a little complicated. There leave alone relying on emoticons I become one myself! My default reaction to everything happiness, sadness, frustration, desperation as a matter of fact even anger is - tears.  And if I say I'm better with words, then how do I explain the numerous unsent letters which know the truth but never got to it's intended recipient?

To oneself, a person is either the best or the worst depending on how the day is going, I can't expect myself to be an unbiased judge of my writing. I mean it's like asking a thief to keep custody of your prized jewels: Would you trust him he says they're safe with him? Probably No. 

So then how am I to know? Am I or am I not the girl who can't complete her thoughts without her crutch?

I Have Abandonment Issues!

Happy New Year!!

What's with the lack of continuity? Umm.. guilty as charged! Like the topic says.. I have abandonment issues. They are probably a little different from what the phrase actually means :P
Why don't I explain what I mean, I cant be made to stay at one place too long! So essentially I am the abandonment issue not you :)

It's been the same ever since I can remember! I don't remember any TV series I watched with consistent enthusiasm till the very end, now this could be the issue with the content on television these days. Same is with movies. Yes I might have seen some good ones and I pay money for the tickets so I do sit them through.. but I do feel myself floating off somewhere else altogether. A song that I absolutely love one month is replaced by a new one the next, so much so that I can't even listen the first chorus!

This is normal isn't it?  Yes or No, I don't think I would stay around long enough for the answer.. for in my head I already have the answer!! Life today is fast paced, technology quickly changing, the need to evolve with the speed of light is ever so evident that it has taken a toll on everything. The first and the most affected victim is our patience. Remember how when we kids we used to put one roll of negative onto our cameras and wait for 30-40 odd clicks and a visit to the photo studio to get the roll developed to finally see what we got? Cut to today, when the digital capture is in our hands in a fraction of a second, and the next it is deleted for not being good enough. It wasn't the same earlier, like it or not, we used to preserve those photographs either to hide them or just keep them as a reminder of what was and you have become. This is just one example, there would be a million more, but the jist is the same.

Its not the same any more, the sense of permanence is missing. Good or bad I don't know. Different it sure is!